Would You..??

How proud of me would you be,
..if I shaped your words in action..??
,be that good child,
..you always wanted from me,
bright in class..
..when exam results come in,
,its a pass..

What If didn't miss any dot,
..that I was supposed to join,
,and be the final image,
would you be proud of me..??

I have tried I must say..
..and it ain't easy,
since all you ever see on me,
,am afraid they seem not to be clothes,
but mistakes,
,or rather the Do that I didn't do,
,from the list of what to do,
and the Do that I did,
,from the list of what not to do..

I've never heard a "Good" from you,
or rather a "Am Proud Of You"
I guess I have been a failure,
..or I am in your presence..

At times I tend to believe..
..you either give me what I ask for,
,to stop nagging or just to perform your duty

None of you care,
..am forced to believe so..
Okay, how many time have you called,
just to check up on me,
,ask me how am holding up..
...whats challenging me..
..this..that.. blah blah blah..??
you can't count, since there is none...
You either call to complain,
..send me or even scold me,
,via the phone... Mmmmmh..!!

It hurts even when am happy,
,doing what I love..
..since you ain't proud of me even a single bit,
I have tried I must say,
,and it ain't easy..

Well, I am always silent,
..in your presence,
Just cause I don't want to piss you off,

But above all,
I wont stop..
..hope someday you will be proud,
I hope it wont be late..

Just know I appreciate you..
..and will you ever be happy,
,and proud of me..??

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